After that night I searched for more clues as to who exactly I was in that lifetime and I am excited to say that I'm getting closer and have found out much. The following is a picture I found online of blades that look closest to the interestingly-shaped one I saw in my vision. And guess what kind of swords they are... African blades. Aha! Clue #1...
The closest blade to what I saw was the one with serrated points along its length, the 7th from the right. So, that puts me in Africa. The next thing I searched was "African War Headdress" as I thought maybe that helmet or hat that I saw the golden being wearing could be of African descent as well, maybe leading me to the conclusion of being in a battle between rival tribes of Africa or something. And guess what I found, yup I found clue #2 the large, upturned, sun-hat looking headdress exactly. But what is interesting is that when I researched more into it, it seems like that item of clothing is worn by only Zulu women. Interesting, because at first I got the vibe that I had been a man in that life, but now I see the correlation between the highly protective and loving nature of that existence and the flickering wildness I had previously seen, which I had thought briefly at the time (that looks like long hair flying in the wind). Very interesting...
This post was originally written on August 13th, 2017.
Last night August 12th, I had the most incredible experience. I sat outside on the deck to stargaze and I was about to find a webcast replay to listen to on youwealthrevolution. Normally I will find a replay description that really speaks to me and when listened to I usually find out that synchronicity led me to that piece because it was exactly what I needed at the time and then I’d be lucky to find hints at pieces of wisdom that open up different levels of understanding for and of me. However, scrolling through the replays, none really jumped out at me and when I tried to play one, all of a sudden my internet wouldn’t connect. Lol typical. So I decided to go through my itunes and listen to Jennifer McClean’s “Elevate” or her “Best of Spontaneous Transformation” sessions that I had previously bought and listened to already. I scrolled down and the session on Freedom and Spaciousness sounded nice to me and so I started on that one. A few minutes in I must’ve mistakenly pressed a button because another audio came on that was actually on a different playlist but was one of the Best of Spontaneous Transformation sessions by Jennifer- Your Emotions, Releasing Triggers and Expressing Fully. Bingo. Exactly what I needed. An issue I had been having around my emotions that was continuously affecting my life and that I was just considering- why it is that I am a naturally joyful, compassionate being and yet all too often I get easily triggered by my surroundings, thoughts, whatever, that I lash out or get really overcome with anger and hostility? Why was that? How was it that I could be holding this space for myself to really hold an intention for positive things to enter into my life yet I could easily snap into this judgemental and aggravated state of mind?
In the session, Jennifer worked with a woman named Nancy who was sexually assaulted when she was younger and so she held onto this belief of being unsafe and that showed up in her life as not dating, etc. Part of the Spontaneous Transformation Technique asks you to go into a meditation where you enter the body and go up to that place in your body where this belief/pain/trauma is held and basically you make your presence known to this aspect of yourself that is there and you just be present for them. You really listen to what this aspect has to say and you thank them for holding onto this emotion or upset because this aspect held onto it in order to protect you. It wasn’t safe at the time of the trauma to feel those feelings, and so this part of yourself protected you in this way. Going along with the process I was listening to, I found this flickering, dark wildness somewhere in my throat/head space. This wild energy that was constantly in flux.
Ok guys I know I haven't blogged in a while, I'm sorry! I've been a busy busy bee lol. Let me give you a quick update on what has transpired since my last post. I started a new job, went back home for a mini vacation during Merrie Monarch week (see next post about that), I've been drawing up more designs for my future clothing line, and lastly and most excitingly I have started to make jewelry and have launched my new etsy shop "BrightLightJewelryHI"! This was the surprise I had in the making in one of my previous posts hehe surprise! I am so unbelievably stoked about this because this is actually something I've been wanting to do even before my clothing line idea. I came up with the idea of making high-vibrational jewelry as I contemplated my love for crystals as well as my interest in fashion and fashion accessories. How can I merge my knowledge of crystals and my great taste in fashion and bring that fusion to others I thought, and so BrightLightJewelryHI was born. What better way (besides having a big chunk of crystal) to soak up a crystal's energy and invite that energy to play in your life than by having a great piece that can be kept in your energy field all day long as well as complement your outfit. Definitely a great and sneaky way to get that dose of crystalline energy, I hope to solve the problem of bulky crystals kept in pockets or sports bras as well as the overpriced market of jewelry. I am a firm believer that if you see a crystal and that crystal calls to you, there should be no reason why you shouldn't be able to get it. A hefty price tag should not be that reason. My jewelry is handmade by myself and as such is not completely "perfect" and yet it is, in its combination of materials, textures, and colors, and fusion of various crystals together in one piece. Through this work, I hope to contribute my love to the world and act as a bridge between you and the crystalline energies that seek to work with you and enhance your human experience. This mission is extremely meaningful to me and simply being able to help these crystals reach their rightful partners in the world already brings me immense satisfaction and joy and so I've purposely made sure that the pricing of my pieces are very reasonable so that whoever desires it may quickly own it. So far I have just listed a handful of bracelets and a couple of rings on my etsy shop, but I have much more bracelets that are in the process of being made and I will soon be making earrings and chain jewelry such as necklaces, anklets, and body chains. I hope you all find my work interesting and I will keep you updated on any more of my business ventures. Happy Manifesting Monday! (;
I've been given news last year from a loved one about an illness they currently struggle with. My belief was that it wasn't as bad as it sounded because it couldn't be, not for someone who I loved so dearly and who was just the best kind of person around. Kind, sweet and true. I thought that this illness could be cured by changing eating habits to healthier ones, drinking a lot of detox water and tea, being optimistic, and with occasional energy work done by myself. The last time they had gone to the doctor for test results they had come over to talk about it and as I held this person, I prayed. I truly prayed, spoke with my heart and as I prayed I visualized golden light moving throughout their body, releasing what no longer serves, what does not align with the highest vibration of health, wellness, and love, and light opening their body. I knew Michael was there, healing beside me and with me. As I did this, held them close, it felt as if the light was also moving through my body in the exact same way as it was for them and I could feel my body release, unclench itself, and I knew without a doubt that their body was responding well to the energies we were working with. When I finished I asked how they felt, and they confirmed that they did feel "lighter". With my inner sight, I could see their body glowing with soft golden light. That was about a month or two ago. Yesterday, I was told that their blood test results were the worst it's ever been, so bad in fact that another test would be taken and if confirmed, my loved one would have to schedule a surgery for dialysis.
Let me just put this into perspective. The love of my life, who dreams of working for NASA, becoming an astronaut so they could blissfully float through the universe of stars, has an almost definite possibility of that never happening, being hooked up to a machine for the rest of their life. I was in shock. I was really under the impression that that single healing had been enough. For clarification, I do still believe and know that their body had responded to the light. Much was released that day. But what was also almost as important as me knowing that the light had affected their energy, was the knowing that came over me and is as solid as the earth's foundation, that they are going to be alright. I know this. I am so sure of it because it is so. God told me so.
But when I heard this new update on their health, I panicked. I doubted for a moment. But what was just as bad if not worst of the fact that they are this sick, was how this dearly loved soul was feeling right at this moment. Scared for their life. Horrible. My heart whimpered.
This morning as I sat in my chair, I prayed to my grandmother Kawehi in heaven, to my angels, to God. I asked for guidance and courage. I asked for help and clarification on what to do now. I asked for healing and wellness for my loved one and please, because this dearest person deserves to live a happy, healthy, fulfilling life in this lifetime, with me. I asked for them to help me help him or help him to help himself, whichever was meant to be. And I asked too for faith. I chose to listen to a webcast replay of Jennifer Mclean and hoped that this time, like other incredibly synchronistic times in the past, that whichever replay I listened to would truly be meant for me in this exact time in my life. I had left a tab up on my browser for Jennifer Mclean's 5 Days of Power Healing Attunements for probably at least the last 2 weeks. When I clicked onto it and read the very first sentence of the Day 4 replay summary that appeared before me, I knew in an instant this was what I needed today. "Yep, we did it... we dissolved fear." Fear, anxiety, that which was plaguing me at that moment in time.
Tucked away in downtown Hilo, Hawaii, you might accidently find yourself at the front door of this quaint little cafe just steps away from the local farmers market. This is where I found myself about a week ago but I'd intentionally made my way there with a friend of mine and her daughter after hearing the place had such good reviews and was so hard to get reservations for (which made it even more appealing in a way). As the three of us walked to the front entrance, a tanned man wearing a lauhala papale (Hawaiian hat) crossed our path carrying what seemed to be a bag of fresh groceries from the nearby market. He greeted us good-naturedly and opened the door of the cafe for us and then introduced himself as Paul himself, owner, chef, and entertainer of the now-favorite little restaurant. He asks if we've ever been to his restaurant before, which we hadn't and he tells us "What took you so long?" Lol seriously, what took us so long to find this gem. One of Hilo's well-kept secrets for sure!
Inside was set three tables, one of which was already occupied by a couple. I liked the place instantly. The small open kitchen sat a few feet away from our table, above the kitchen a giant board with the delicious menu was set, a few vintage Hawaii-esque paintings hung, a giant bronze clock placed on the opposite wall, and notably a small sign high up on the wall that said "Never Trust A Skinny Cook", which was amusing as Paul was a pretty slender guy. I happily found out I had nothing to worry about this very excellent cook. I ordered the SS BLT, a combination of BLT sandwich including smoked salmon and pesto and a fresh side salad. My compadres ordered Belgian waffles and the Fish Bowl, which was a tasty herby pasta with sauteed fish. Paul started on the Belgian waffles first for the youngest of our troupe, and then worked his way to the sandwich and pasta. Let me just say that as quickly as this guy can cook, my mouth could not stop salivating at the delicious aroma that quickly filled the room.
Let's just say that when our food was placed on the table I could barely contain myself long enough to take a picture, but oh yes I did (; The SS BLT far exceeded expectations, everything was so delicious! I even ate the tomatoes, and I don't even like tomatoes!!! The sandwich was piled high with fresh ingredients and very good salmon and pesto. I feel like pesto is always a hit or miss and this one definitely got my good marks. The salad and the vinaigrette was just as tasty and I actually finished it before I got even halfway through my sandwich.
Paul even gave me a nice piece of sauteed Ahi to try, which was the fish used in the Fish Bowl. Such a nice guy, it was obvious being so hospitable and caring was so second nature for him. I was not disappointed in the least. The fish was tender, juicy and tasty, yummmmmm!
Oh my God! Just... Wow! That can pretty much sum up my trip back home to Hilo, Hawaii from January 1-7, 2017. I haven't been home in months because of the two jobs I presently have. Retail and hospitality usually have some strict blackout dates around the holidays, so I never got a chance to go on a mini vacation for quite some time. I needed that like I need air to breathe. I'm starting to recognize that my life rolls so much smoother, synchronistic and just overall more enjoyable when I am not constantly stressed by being on time, having to be somewhere, having to hold a certain disposition that doesn't match my current mood, having to be constantly in a state of anxiety, stress, rushing frenzy or amusingly, boredom. That's what my life was like for the better part of 2016 but I am happy to say that won't be my life any longer.
Returning home on the 1st of the year was the best possible decision I could have made, mentally, emotionally, physically, and divinely, rejuvenating and revitalizing. I feel energized, focused, and most importantly excited and passionate! Two things I haven't felt in a long time and realized are so key to a fulfilling life. Excitement and passion which is a form of JOY, had been sorely missing and I knew that, but I was stuck on what I needed to change or bring in to my life that would heal those parts of me that felt exhausted, unhappy, uncommitted. And so, let me tell you more about my Hilo trip.
I had worked on New Year's Eve on the dinner cruise and caught the early morning flight in to Hilo on Hawaii island, better known as the Big Island. As soon as I stepped foot into the open air terminal my senses completely relaxed as a soft, gentle rain fell on that gray morning and a comforting hush surrounded me. I was home. Dad picked me up and we went to one of our usual breakfast stops iHop, and I enjoyed some father-daughter conversation as I sipped my toasted marshmallow hot chocolate. Probably the first day in months where I could start the morning without having to immediately get ready to go to work or without an itinerary or schedule. I could already feel myself slipping back into that small town lifestyle I've been missing. Upon arrival at home though, I frantically dropped my bags at the door and searched for a snack for the large, loving, ever-exciteable dog that awaited me in my backyard. My two year old dog Mana, a Malamute/Shepherd mix and my best friend, looked confused as I opened the back door. After calling his name however, the craziness exploded as he barked and whined and jumped around excitedly waiting for me to get within his reach so he could jump on me and give me those wet kisses lol. My heart was just as excited as his, my big handsome boy so full of unconditional love, joy, and non-judgement. I missed you Mana. The perfect start to a much-needed vacation and I was loving every moment.
Later I reconnected with a dear friend Felicia, and we spent the rest of the night catching each other up on the past few months of our lives. I told her about my current jobs and we got on the subject of owning a business. Hey didn't you study fashion design? Well yes, I had. You can do that!
I've been wanting to start my own business for some time now but I never quite got motivated or inspired enough to really start doing something about it. My entire perspective changed on this trip. She showed me a local girl on social media who had created a brand and started selling some of her designs and was doing pretty well for herself. I became completely inspired by how unexpectedly this start-up business had become successful and I really felt glad for their good fortune. What I admired most wasn't that her new business was doing well, but rather that she seemed so happy. You can tell that she is truly living the life she wants to live and embodying the person she wants to be and that kind of fulfillment one feels from living your life as you desire and with purpose is something I find very respectable and so appealing. To not deny yourself anything and to be authentic and open in all you do and to not waste any more time! This I think was the little switch that turned my inspiration on and really ignited my passion. That night after returning home I feverishly wrote down and drew out idea after idea as I received image after image download of divine inspiration. The following day in about thirty or so minutes time I wrote down even more. You don't realize how much a hectic daily schedule really takes a toll on you until you no longer have one. It's like as soon as my brain could take a breather, all these ideas that seemed out of reach just came flooding in. After about 5 days of brainstorming and imagination, I had pages of silhouette designs, written down color combinations, thought of names and key elements of my first and a few future collections, had a basic website design in mind, decided on not one but two separate businesses, as well as come to a final decision on the name of my apparel business. "Kawehi" was my final choice. I originally did not want to name my brand after myself, but found it to be a very fitting name for a modern take on beautiful aloha wear as the Hawaiian word Kawehi means "adornment". My brand name is also a nod to my great-grandmother Kawehi, also known as "Kawehe", who I am named after, and who was a well-known healer in her time using traditional la`au lapa`au (Hawaiian medicinal plants). So this brand is also a tribute to her but stands well on its own to mean everything a well-placed adornment does to frame your inner and outer beauty. I had thought about doing aloha wear a few times before after seeing designs that I thought oh well that's a nice color but I'm not crazy about the print or wow that's a nice print but the silhouette is so unflattering... my dilemmas as I shopped for aloha wear usually for occasions such as the Merrie Monarch festival or casual and formal festivities of any kind. I decided to solve the problem of young, stylish Hawaii locals who can't seem to find that right dress or top that they can genuinely say omg that's sooo cute!, as well as be the cultural reflection of Polynesia that is found in aloha wear attire, but which generally tends to look a little more dated depending on the silhouette and print. My passion has revealed itself in full creative ferocity and I am beyond excited to start working even more on building my brand and finally launching my business this year. My first collection will debut Fall/Winter of 2017 Aaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhh!!! So wish me luck and look out for it in the coming months! I will be posting updates of this new endeavor and I hope you'll find my new passion just as energizing as I do right now! As for my second business idea which I'll keep a secret for now hehe, I will be posting updates as well but my launch date most likely will be after Kawehi.
This year is already proving itself to be one of tremendous growth and fulfillment and I strongly believe that for everyone out there that this moment right now, right now as you're reading this, is the moment to actualize all you've ever wanted for yourself. Why wait any longer when you can say yes to your bliss and really live it. Because based on what has happened to me in the last week or so, once you make the choice to live the way you want to live, express yourself as all you are and really decide to not settle for anything less than your happiness, you will notice that once you send that intention out into the Universe, things quickly and easily start falling into place and showing up for you. This I know is true.
Good morning all! Just some thoughts about the closing of 2015 and the start of 2016. This year by the way is a 9 year, (2+0+1+6) 9 being the number of a cycle completing itself in Numerology. So what is it that you want to finally finish/achieve this year? What plans have you always wanted to put into action? This year IS your year! This year calls for action and resilience as you accomplish your heart's desires and bring forth your vision to be shared with the world. We can't hide behind our dreams anymore, we must act. Stand up and be seen, teach what you know, share what you can, all the while learning and evolving into what you know you already are, a stronger, smarter, more in flow, and overall just better individual than you were portraying yourself as. Remember that you are Love, Light, and Life gifted this human form to be expressed in whichever way you direct yourself. So what will be your legacy this year? In what ways can you exceed your own expectations? Find that state of possibility, that what if? idea and run with it! If your heart tells you to do something, acknowledge its support and find your way of communicating your messages and ideas to access your success.
GROW. That is a strong theme this year for me and all I'd assume. Although that may be an infinite task, what I mean is to change, adapt, evolve, transcend, right Now, in whatever way that means for you. It's about releasing energy that used to feel "stuck", releasing what no longer serves you, ideals, people, situations, etc., and seeing yourself rise above and enter into that state of Limitlessness. And so it is.
On another note, many people (including myself) may have ended 2015 a little roughly, the very last week of the year was full of outbursts and irritation for me, which I thought was a little odd as the energies during the previous days of September and on my Christmas day were perfectly beautiful. But I definitely felt was that this was a final releasing of trapped tension and energies that still lingered within myself, so that new energies could be received fully. The energies I struggle with most such as impatience and anger came up towards the ending of the year for a lot of us. Thinking hey what happened here? I was in flow, I was doing my daily meditations, I've been more open and compassionate in my interactions with other people? I now know that all is as it should be. Like a cough-up of phlegm when you're sick, what isn't in the highest good for you must be brought up and out to be cleared first before upgrading into a vibrant, healthy, and light-filled being.
As a completion year I experienced that energy firsthand on New Year's Eve/New Year's Morning. I had an exciting and rowdy night with friends (lol who didnt) where I randomly met a psychic who gave me some positive news on my upcoming year. Exactly what my intentions were and that I have been planning for some time was what I was told would come to fruition. She was wonderfully on point about my move at the end of next month, prosperity coming in (which I expect to be pretty awesome this year but which I will get into on a future blog post!), as well as a few other lovely things that were nice to get confirmation on, such as my connection with crystals. Speaking of crystals, I actually lost my lucky Aventurine palm stone that day while (sort of) skinny dipping at the beach! It was kind of weird when I realized I didn't have it, I wasn't stressed or sad like I thought I would've been. That was a very cherished crystal who I partnered with a lot in matters of the heart, including love, abundance, and good fortune. It seems as if I am beginning to lose my attachments to specific outcomes and expectations because I know I am already being held by Life to give me all I need. Funnily enough, that beach and that same space of sand was the very same spot that I had been gifted a gold diamond ring by its waters many, many years ago as I floated with the tide as a child. I realized I need not look outside of myself for anything, I do not need to seek what I am already capable of. I carried that palm stone with me during times I felt my energy was not enough at the time to deal with the responsibilities of my Life and as its form is separated from my ownership, I know that I no longer need its assistance any longer and like a beautiful skin, I shed that hold I had on finding happiness anywhere but within my own being.
BE INTENTIONAL this year. Let's do everything on purpose! Hold an intention for ourselves to embody our highest potential and see what great things come our way. Know that we are all worthy of receiving these circumstances and do your greatest work as a perfect child of God. With intention, we can open ourselves to opportunity and possibility and create things that are more harmonic, more joyful, more satisfying.
HAVE CHOICE. A wonderful theme Jarrad Hewett talked about in one of his calls. If you aren't familiar with Jarrad's work, OMG please look him up! His is one of the most loving, inspiring, uplifting, liberating and powerful souls I've ever felt. I absolutely adore him and hold him in the highest respect and love for all he does for the world. Trust me when I say his words of wisdom are transformational! Anyway back to Choice.
What I gleaned from his call was to never give up your choice. Do not feel obligated by other people's expectations or energy they may have placed on you to make a decision or act in a certain way that is not in alignment with your heart. You always have choice. You don't have to reciprocate. I love that. I actually really needed that this week. I received information this past weekend about something that was well, "complicated". Let's just say that I was given a choice to either send myself back into a state of confusion, unease, and really just self-sabotage or I could rise above as I listen to my heart's knowing. While my heart knows compassion and love for others, it also knows what is in alignment for me and what paths are or are not in my best interests. I acknowledge the compassion and (not responsibility because like I said I am not obligated to anything but rather it was like) divine opportunity, to do as I will. My heart senses a sweet yet tormented soul and while my soul is enticed by the potential of Love, my heart and soul knows that this situation is not one that is in the highest good for me. Even my ego knows this to be true yet my heart still flutters over the other, and I have an idea why. Should I succumb to the most basic human desires such as needing to be loved, sex, etc. while the source of these things is disharmonic and not in alignment with my soul's truth, it would be proof I have not grown into a stronger and yet more open and in tune emotional and self-loving being. My heart and mind knows that I have transcended the emotional drama and baggage others may hold, and my soul flits away from that state. No longer am I bound. I fly so freely above all the emotional and mental confusion and soar into a different way of being. We don't have to take on the burdens of others. As Jarrad said, "We stand in choice of who we want to be...Choose anew. Choose from Love".
I feel so supported, so let in by Life, like my eyes were closed off to the joy of what has always been mine and now I'm seeing so clearly how free I am. I am that choice and freedom and unlimited possibility and good things. By trusting the Universe to always take care of me, who was always looking out for me, I am receiving more events and circumstances that are more in alignment with what I wish to attract. Not just that but also that which I am given by Life in order to grow and become even more revealed and peeled back. Layers after layers fall off and my soul grows lighter. This joy I feel is like ecstasy tickling my heart. Feeling so connected to all around me, and within me, feeling myself expand as I look within. The secret is knowing. My childlike wonderment of Life is what empowers me to play (with)in the Universe and allow creation to happen for/as me. This expansiveness heals my soul on all levels as I realize my power/birthright. Now I have the chance to create and manifest my heart's greatest desires and live Life even greater than my wildest dreams! Who would have thought I was as loved as this? Never let yourself forget how dearly loved you are by all of Life. Remember to create thoughts that create more joy as your will is directed out and reflected back in. Create dear hearts of the world. Be and create Love. Awaken into a new level of being and Emerge into a new reality.
I Am Kawehi. 27 years of life on this earth, steadily growing, rising and blossoming like a lotus birthing through the mud, upwards into crystal waters and then to rest atop in open air as the firey sun alights my form. I wander. I imagine. I expand and seek to understand. I see. I AM.