After that night I searched for more clues as to who exactly I was in that lifetime and I am excited to say that I'm getting closer and have found out much. The following is a picture I found online of blades that look closest to the interestingly-shaped one I saw in my vision. And guess what kind of swords they are... African blades. Aha! Clue #1...
The closest blade to what I saw was the one with serrated points along its length, the 7th from the right. So, that puts me in Africa. The next thing I searched was "African War Headdress" as I thought maybe that helmet or hat that I saw the golden being wearing could be of African descent as well, maybe leading me to the conclusion of being in a battle between rival tribes of Africa or something. And guess what I found, yup I found clue #2 the large, upturned, sun-hat looking headdress exactly. But what is interesting is that when I researched more into it, it seems like that item of clothing is worn by only Zulu women. Interesting, because at first I got the vibe that I had been a man in that life, but now I see the correlation between the highly protective and loving nature of that existence and the flickering wildness I had previously seen, which I had thought briefly at the time (that looks like long hair flying in the wind). Very interesting...
This post was originally written on August 13th, 2017.
Last night August 12th, I had the most incredible experience. I sat outside on the deck to stargaze and I was about to find a webcast replay to listen to on youwealthrevolution. Normally I will find a replay description that really speaks to me and when listened to I usually find out that synchronicity led me to that piece because it was exactly what I needed at the time and then I’d be lucky to find hints at pieces of wisdom that open up different levels of understanding for and of me. However, scrolling through the replays, none really jumped out at me and when I tried to play one, all of a sudden my internet wouldn’t connect. Lol typical. So I decided to go through my itunes and listen to Jennifer McClean’s “Elevate” or her “Best of Spontaneous Transformation” sessions that I had previously bought and listened to already. I scrolled down and the session on Freedom and Spaciousness sounded nice to me and so I started on that one. A few minutes in I must’ve mistakenly pressed a button because another audio came on that was actually on a different playlist but was one of the Best of Spontaneous Transformation sessions by Jennifer- Your Emotions, Releasing Triggers and Expressing Fully. Bingo. Exactly what I needed. An issue I had been having around my emotions that was continuously affecting my life and that I was just considering- why it is that I am a naturally joyful, compassionate being and yet all too often I get easily triggered by my surroundings, thoughts, whatever, that I lash out or get really overcome with anger and hostility? Why was that? How was it that I could be holding this space for myself to really hold an intention for positive things to enter into my life yet I could easily snap into this judgemental and aggravated state of mind?
In the session, Jennifer worked with a woman named Nancy who was sexually assaulted when she was younger and so she held onto this belief of being unsafe and that showed up in her life as not dating, etc. Part of the Spontaneous Transformation Technique asks you to go into a meditation where you enter the body and go up to that place in your body where this belief/pain/trauma is held and basically you make your presence known to this aspect of yourself that is there and you just be present for them. You really listen to what this aspect has to say and you thank them for holding onto this emotion or upset because this aspect held onto it in order to protect you. It wasn’t safe at the time of the trauma to feel those feelings, and so this part of yourself protected you in this way. Going along with the process I was listening to, I found this flickering, dark wildness somewhere in my throat/head space. This wild energy that was constantly in flux.
I Am Kawehi. 27 years of life on this earth, steadily growing, rising and blossoming like a lotus birthing through the mud, upwards into crystal waters and then to rest atop in open air as the firey sun alights my form. I wander. I imagine. I expand and seek to understand. I see. I AM.