Ahh Valentine's day, the day when most people go cuckoo in the head about planned romantic acts of love for their chosen sweetheart or the lack thereof, in which case this day is quite lonesome. I slide in somewhere in the middle this year and yet somewhere entirely different, and dare I say it more free and alive than ever!
The past few weeks I've really been contemplating my past experiences in romantic relationships and the potential romantic relationship(s) to come. Thinking about my choice in partners and what drew me towards them in the first place and how that relationship went along, usually at a high and then a low on a roller-coaster ride of heartache and bliss. I thought about the qualities of each person that I found most attractively endearing and what lessons came to fruition at the end of such partnerships. I thought about these things, gathering a coherent and specific idea of what I want in my future, what qualities I want in a partner, what goals and beliefs and expressions of themselves I hope to know. You can not expect to manifest your ideal partnership if you do not even know exactly what it is that you want. You need to be clear when asking the Universe for such a perfect blessing for you. And this is what I do know..
I look forward to a passionately romantic and vibrant relationship grounded in spirituality, where I can easily bare my innermost desires and dreams and hold the knowing that this person really sees me, without judgement and criticism but with wonder and understanding. To have someone really truly see you, would be a most wonderful thing. Someone who knows the value of kindness and shows compassion open-heartedly. Someone ambitious, who knows what they want in their life and are adventurous enough to go after it. Someone charismatic and expressionate, easily able to open their soul to mine, as well as share their ideas and thoughts to the world, openly and fearlessly. Someone so genuinely authentic in the way they live their lives and portray themselves based on their innermost beliefs and ideals. Someone who is self-aware and who realizes their connection to the Divine as one of wholeness and absolute unconditional love. Someone who is ever curious, a head in the stars with feet firmly on the earth. A free soul, following the path of their own bliss and supportive in mine. An equal and complement to my soul. Soulful, loyal, light-filled and true. My heart already knows you.
I've been reading a few things lately about twin flames and I seem to get these little hints every so often about that perfect partnership looming ever closer. If you haven't heard of twin flames before then let me explain... Basically before you incarnated in this lifetime, you were once an extremely high-vibrational, powerful, light being that had to split itself in two in order to occupy the physical plane. The idea is that you have this other half of yourself roaming the world as well, and upon meeting you instantly feel this deep, profound connection that goes beyond mere physical attraction. That connection is a soul recognizing itself in another, the reason why twin flames feel whole and complete as if they've never quite felt that same way before. While you can have many soul-mates, you only have one twin flame. Your twin flame is a mirror of yourself, mirroring the light and shadow that resides within the depths of your own soul. Twin flame relationships are said to be intense, in regards to the level of awakening that you have reached so far in your life. A twin flame relationship is meant to teach you about unconditional love. If you have not reached that level of unconditional love of self, that is then reflected in this twin flame relationship. For others, their meeting comes after that point of true self acceptance and love of self and the partnership will mirror that energy, expressing itself into the deepest, most exhilarating, and powerful co-creative energy you can imagine. That kind of love would still time, birth worlds, and would demonstrate the highest love that Source has for us all.
For me, I have this intense yearning for adventure and expression. Both of which would make my spirit soar and my heart sing at the possibilities before me and the joy it brings. I know that when I follow the path that lights my soul, doors show themselves and open to me and when I simply and authentically follow my bliss, wonder after wonder will come into my life, guiding me towards the very next step. Leading me ever onwards on a path of fulfillment and awe, I believe that as I follow my path, my soul will grow with each step. As my soul evolves and learns to live in a state of complete trust, joy and wholeness, I will know what it is to truly know and be love. I know that when I've reached a certain understanding of myself and all of life I will then be ready to fully and truly give myself to another, and my other half will be ready as well, searching for me as I search for them. It is said that you and your twin flame are like magnets, no matter how far the distance, even if they are on the other side of the world, they can feel your pull and Life will find a way to bring you together.
happiest valentine's day...
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I Am Kawehi. 27 years of life on this earth, steadily growing, rising and blossoming like a lotus birthing through the mud, upwards into crystal waters and then to rest atop in open air as the firey sun alights my form. I wander. I imagine. I expand and seek to understand. I see. I AM.